So what do you do in a blog? Its like a journal, right? Well I suppose I'll find out as I go.
One thing I want more than anything in this life is to achieve the same beauty and lightheartedness as the things in my writing and art. It would be wonderful to look in the mirror one day, and feel like you can be yourself, and still be loved and cherished by someone. I know it's possible, but I don't think the vision in my head is.
Something horrible that I know is that no one will ever feel the way you do when you think of something. I have a vision almost every night of sheer white ribbons and strings of pearls and mesh left across the floor in a lovely mess of grace. In the midst of it all is a girl. She has long, wavy auburn hair leaving her back to fall in puddles against the cushioned floor, she is pure, without clothes, and falling asleep.
If I told this to anyone at my school, they would immediately think I was a lesbian. All because I believe nudity is pure, and I like the image of a nude body. I love the dark, Victorian style things.
I have one good friend, and her name is Hannah. Her first initials and my first initials are the same, heh. It doesn't surprise me. We are almost the same person. She really is the only one who understands me. We're together most of the time, and we've never really gotten mad or annoyed at each other, and our laughter is in sync. Really scares people! When we're not together, people will actually look for the other one!
Right now, one of my biggest hobbies are joint dolls. I have soooo many pictures of them stored on my computer right now. I want one SO bad! Mom says that by the end of the summer, if I do all my chores, I'll have enough money to buy one myself ^ ^!
Also, yesterday was the first day of my summer vacation. I'll be a sophomore next year! I've been waiting so long for freedom, that I don't really feel like it's here yet!Labels: 15, artist, beauty, confused, first blog, girl, joint dolls, sophomore, summer |
